Take a look deep within yourself.
What do you hide from others? What stands between you and other people? What judgments or separations do you hold that no longer work for your life?
Are you living in truth?
All of your truth?
Oh, of course not. This is a process for us all. I know because I’m beginning to unpack the ways in which I hide myself from the world. However, in order to be pure light, you need to see what hides in the shadows.
And it needs to come out.
The truth that sits there and hurts to face is usually the same truth those in your close circle are dealing with. When you begin to deconstruct the frameworks that do not serve your life, those around you are healed by your example.
Finding the answer to that question is never a pretty process, so get ready for a ride if this is you.
ALL TRUTHS MUST COME OUT IN ORDER FOR YOU TO TRANSITION INTO THE NEXT, AND BEST, PART OF YOUR LIFE.
*If you find yourself wanting to close this down right now, DO NOT listen to that voice. That is the part of you that is looking to keep you away from your truth. Say to yourself: “I am guided, guarded, and protected. I am open to truth. I am open to change and transformation.*
We don’t have to talk about your truth just yet. Here’s mine…
We all have vices. I’ve come forward about mine because:
A) I’m sick of it being a vice
B) I have huge things ahead in my career and every distraction needs to go
This past week, I shared two poems. One in which I was deciding to end my attachment to marijuana, and the other in which I embraced the other side so that I could be kinder to myself throughout this process.
This shit has not been easy, sway.
Anybody that smokes marijuana knows that smoking helps with inducing appetite, pain relief, coping with stress, as well as reducing nausea. That is because of the way that the chemical in marijuana, THC, bonds with the cells in our brain.
So now that I’ve cut down, I’m having issues eating the way I normally would, as well as fighting the nausea that comes with having an extremely sensitive stomach. This is especially true as my body rejects any food that isn’t vegan. Soon, being vegan won’t be a choice for me.
Anyway, it means I am detaching from literally all the shit I normally use as a crutch to run from my feelings–all at once, at that.
After 3.5 years of sleeping with my partner most of the time, I am back home with my family. After 9 years of smoking, I am finally cutting down. After 9 years drinking, I am finally done for good. After a lifetime of eating unhealthy, I am detaching from the food that my body doesn’t like.
My higher self is trynna show out–all the way. She is out here trynna flourish. Who am I to stop her?
What, because I’m scared? Scared of success? Scared of what would happen if I embrace all my gifts and talents? Scared of what happens if I deconstruct every lie I told myself as to why my success should wait?
Those aren’t good enough reasons to hold on to all of that. So I decided to sprinkle my life with sauce. Divine sauce. I decided to pray all my worries away, and I fasted several times for clear answers from spirit. I sacrificed luxuries so I could get to know my needs, and I released everything else that kept me from focusing on what was important.
God is working in my life in some crazy ways. The people around me are letting go of the ways that don’t serve them. The false truths they hold on to. The facades they create in order to appease the lower versions of themselves, as well as to please others.
It just so happens that when you judge, you are afraid of being judged. When someone is standing in their truth, and it bothers you, it’s because you aren’t. When someone calls you directly on your truth and you decide to go off on them about why you think their truth doesn’t work, it’s because you are feeling uncomfortable with your own truth and aren’t willing to sit with it.
When we are in denial of what stands in the way of success, we are envious of those who are taking the steps to get there.
I remember when I used to hate on Cardi B. I used to think, “How can she have all this success? She is so ratchet!”
The inner me was saying:
I’m ratchet, she’s ratchet. We both are. The only difference is I have $50k in debt and she is getting money by being true to who she is.
Talk about the beginning of a reality check. That was two years ago. Today, I love Cardi and that’s because I finally learned to love myself and embrace people who are also loving themselves. Unapologetically.
During the week that I spent away from my beloved Mary Jane, I obtained a grand level of clarity. I became clear about my goals, dreams, aspirations. I unpacked which expectations I placed on myself that weren’t working. I tried to reanalyze every plan I had made for the next year–I asked, which of these things can I do on my own or with free resources?
The first thing that came to my mind was moving forward with one of my writing projects. I realize I had been slacking because I felt I wasn’t equipped to take that step. I quickly learned that wasn’t the case–I am prepared to go beyond blogging, and I will be revealing what this next step is very soon (so sign up for my email list to catch it!)
Then, more truths were revealed. And this time, not mine. Other people around me started to realize the shit in their lives that wasn’t working.
When you begin to stand in the light of your truth, beware: you are going to invoke emotions in others that they did not want to come to face.
You may become the victim of an attack of jealousy, envy, and ego. I have heard of people who throw entire hexes on people who are trying to walk in their purpose and truth, all because they are too scared to do what they need to for their own success and happiness.
Have you ever heard those angry people who have dreams that they never accomplished? Do you hear what they say when you tell them your dreams? Can you feel the energy that comes with dry congratulations and the dip in the conversation after you were so uplifted and excited?
Those people are usually the same ones saying that people are stealing their ideas or criticizing the means by which others are chasing their dreams. How can someone steal your idea? If it is your idea, it will only come to pass when you do it. How can that happen if no one knows every single thing about you and your experience? Aside from that, if you are out there executing your idea, does it really matter to you who stole what?
A focused and clear mind isn’t thinking about shit like that.
In fact, the spirit of collaboration resides within those who are looking to make their dreams come true. A person who is looking to progress will create partnerships that serve their goals.
Stay clear on who you are so that you can reap the benefits that come of all your talents. Stand in your truth.
The truth is, THE UNIVERSE will call you out 30 different ways about the ways in which you are sleeping on yourself. Honesty is the beginning of a transformative, healing, and deep self-love journey. Forgiving yourself for being distracted to begin with is the first part.
I wish you all infinite love, light, and prosperity. This process is not easy, but I know we can all get through.
Please feel free to engage below in the comments!
Which vices are you looking to fight? What makes it difficult for you to stand in your truth? Are you ashamed of who you truly are? Are you afraid that others will judge you? Do people hold expectations for your life that you do not agree with? In which ways are you compromising your happiness to please others?